We all have made them, right?
My son is about to make, what I feel, is a terrible one. There is no stopping him though. In a way, I understand it, but on the other hand I am beyond devastated.
He wants to run away to be with his girlfriend because he said he cannot be happy nor live without being physically near her. He said he cannot wait to finish high school. If I don’t help him, then I know he is gone and I may not hear from him again. If I do help, then I feel like I am enabling a terrible decision. Either way I am going to be left beyond heartbroken.
If it had been me, in his situation, at his age (18), with a mental illness, feeling the way he does, I would have never even talked to my parents about it. I would have been gone without a second thought. I too would have been selfish.
He is my only child, my baby. I know this does not matter to him. I keep asking him to talk in person to work on details to do this “the right way” (if there is such a thing). He wants to text. Ugh. I am not good at texting. But I guess I will take communication any way I can get it, right?
Last night he was so distraught that he told me he was going to kill himself. I was 3 states away. I was helpless. I texted what I thought could help. I was ready to dial 911. An hour or so later, he returned to asking me if I could get him a replacement charger. Ugh, I am so confused. Today, he is back to wanting to kill himself if he can’t be with her.
I am desperately praying for guidance. If you would, can you please say a prayer for us?